Aligned at 31

There are certain milestone birthdays (e.g 16, 18, 21, 30, 40 etc) which people go all out for (as they should!). I was looking forward to turning 30 last year. I imagined it would be the year in which "life begins". I thought "finally, my heart's desires would be met", that things would align and life would sort of make sense. 30 came and...nothing. Still felt the same way I did at 29, my heart's desires went unmet and life was pretty much the same. In hindsight though, there were a few things that shifted for my good and for which I am grateful. It's just that what I truly wanted in my heart did not necessarily materilise, or at least not in the way I expected. But God knew best, and still does. 

I turned 31 yesterday! And guess what? My heart is still expectant! I'm expecting my heart's desires to be met, that things will align finally. What is different, though, is that I am actually genuinely excited to see what God has in store for me this new year. I am genuinely expecting Him to move in my life in ways I have never experienced before. I am expecting ALIGNMENT. I want my desires to fully align with what HE has already planned for me this year. 

When I turned 30, my desires where accompanied by a lot of anxiety. I said I trusted God, but never actually did hence the anxiety. I was also trying so hard to have my life figured out, to know what the future looks life and I planned ahead. The more I tried, the more I seemed to fail hopelessly at it. 

I still don't have life figured out. I actually don't have to have life figured out, and that's the beauty of life. Each day presents an opportunity for me to fully live, explore and just try again. What would be the point of having God in my life if I had everything figured out? Surely I wouldn't need Him. That is why I believe we are not meant to have life figured out; we are suppose to fully lean on Him and trust His guidance. 

I may not know the details of what this new year brings, but I am excited to find out and take each day as it comes. My biggest prayer this year is for God to align my career, my faith and my passions. 

I'm going to leave this prayer below as a reminder of what I'm trusting God for this year.

Dear Lord. I thank you for blessing me with yet another new year. I thank you for the blessed life and all that is yet to come. I pray that you take away the weight of fear, unmet expectations and  comparison. I choose to embrace this new year as a season of pure joy, courage and alignment with Your will. May You open doors for me that no man can shut, and close those that are not meant for me. Teach me to walk with You in grace, to celebrate my journey, and to trust that You are writing my beautiful story. May 31 be a year of alignment, growth, laughter and blessings that overflow. Amen!

Be blessed

Grace